Creativity, sound healing, Yoga

Sparking the fire of creativity through sound

When I’m inspired creatively, words flow through me like the electricity lights the bulb, as if by magic. When I’m inspired, words light up the pages of my notebooks, my pen tapping to the rhythm of my inner poetry. But when I’m blocked, the page is blank, the ukulele collects dust and the songs lay dormant in my throat.

There was a moment recently where I let the page be blank. I waited for the spark to strike, and I thought to myself, when will this creative block end?

And then I started to sing. Without the spark to, I just started to sing again because I knew it was the right thing to do. I started to sing  & write, and then I started to sing & write everyday. The singing became the spark, and my inner pages lit up again with prose.

Sometimes we wait until the perfect moment to begin a project, to make something happen, or to be happy. Because of our conditioning, we are always waiting for something to come and make us happy.

When people say happiness comes from within, it is not that we’re waiting for the day  happiness crawls out of us like a sleeping giant, but when we feel unhappy, we can do the things that cultivate feelings of happiness. It takes practice. This is why Yoga is a practice.

Yoga teaches us that the only thing constant is change itself. So one day the sun is shining, and we’re happy and the next day there is rain and so we’re gloomy. The uncontrollable forces of nature seem to have so much control over our lives. But I don’t just give away my power that easily anymore.

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I know, as a creative life coach, and vocalist that singing scientifically produces the chemicals and hormones nessecary for feelings of happiness. It’s been proven in many studies that singing brings happiness. So why resist singing? What in us resists happiness?

We tend to hold on to certain conditioning. Our experiences shape us, they leave a lasting mark on our subconscious long after the experience has passed. In Yoga, these mental impressions are known as samskaras. These mental impressions affect the neural pathways of the brain, and habituate us to certain ways of being, and attitudes.

 Samskaras are like deep grooves which keep us walking down the same path. When you’ve gone on a hike that is well known and well hiked, there is a pathway, or a groove in the earth from being walked on many times. This is the samskara. Sometimes we walk down that same pathway without awareness if it is even the best way to go. Traveling off the beaten path is a creative way to move, and takes bravery.  

Our past experiences have created patterns of behavior and as we continually walk those patterns we deepen the groove until we’re walking in a ditch and can’t see our way out. Do we stay in the ditch or do we ask for help? We do not have to stay in any situation or emotional state that feels like being buried. But we may need help in identifying our samskaras, limiting beliefs and unhealthy habits that are preventing us from flowing freely in our creative nature. Sometimes we just need someone to sing with.

Song Circle at My Retreat Yoga Soundscapes in Lake Atitlan Guatemala

I understand that creativity naturally ebbs and flows. But for a singer, too long without singing is like a bird staying too long on the ground. As a human, as a creature of this earth, it is your divine right to both sing and be happy, and so why not do both. Why wait until your neck deep in the sand to decide to change?

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A Story of All That Was Inspired & Found​ When our Young Friend Lost His Life in The River.

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Mario Benassi A voice for earth, a vessel for spirit, a catalyst for change

We sat under an old oak tree, our voices rising and falling in harmony, the morning sun casting shadows on our skin. We were singing, like songbirds do, waiting for nothing, but sort of waiting for Annie, as Annies are usually off smiling in their own morning sunshine.

Singing from the heart was nothing new for Mario or me, but this was our first time sharing a song together, just us.

Cross-legged & rooted where we sat, we sang for the moment. No audience except the winged creatures, and a lovely sister who came to gift Mario a little plant that was meant for her grandmother.

This is how much people loved Mario, they gave him their grandmother’s plants.

The next day after our serendipitous meeting, Mario went down to the river to play and pray and he left his body to dance in the eternal waters. He was 22 and he was beautiful.

His foot got caught in the rocks as he slid like a playful child down a rock slide, one which he had played with a dozen or so times before. He went peacefully, like a curious child, and seeker of life’s mysteries, eager to see whats beyond the river bend.

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When I found out, I was singing the song he had taught me.

Mario was & is magic. Everything he touched turned to song. Many of us had spent the weekend with him at a transformational festival. We heard him sing into the wee hours of the morning and heard his laugh first thing as we rose up for the day.

He was a singer, dancer, yogi and excellent hugger; a swimmer, a fisherman, a poet & a lover of life. He was a son, a brother & a lover. To me he was a buddy, someone I was lucky enough to share deep conversations with on whether or not he should wear the ceramic yoni necklace a friend had gifted him.

I imagine he asked me questions the way he asked his sisters questions. And I know, because his sister told me, I smushed his face the way she would. I think that’s why he liked me.

Mario was more than a little brother, he was a great and humble teacher. One morning, I noticed him nearby, sitting in the storytelling dome listening to the stories of the elders, while I hula hooped in the sunshine. Our eyes met and a great transmission took place.

I heard: you are home, & you are free. His admiring gaze felt safe, and I felt seen. With a knowing smirk between us, my day was instantly brighter.

This is how it is with the great ones. Mario was a young bird but had an old soul. He showed us what it looks like to really see and honor the beauty in front of our eyes, while not grasping too tightly.

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Hanging with Mario the last days of his life inspired recognition of the sweetness in my own existence and what magic powers I offer to this world.

You are home and you are free.

This is a sentiment that will ripple out into the universe. Mario is home now, wherever old souls go. He feels like the light, & the gentle whisper of the universe that all is well.

He is a reminder to serve the community and to give kindness without expectations (I’m still working on that one). I hope to serve the community as he did in his life, and keep treasured in my memory the powerful way he brought us together in his passing.

It feels real more than ever now, that each one of us has a mission here on earth. In Yoga, we call it Dharma. It is absolutely freeing to uncover your place in this existence. The sweet spot where you feel creative, at service, and in peace. When you ease into the flow of your Dharma, creativity naturally shines.

When one of us remembers, more of us begin to rise in remembrance of our creative essence. To serve each other in love is one of the most creative aspects of humanity.

There are so many things in this existence that need to be changed, and yet how beautiful to know change is the only consistent. Everything is shifting, transmuting, opening, closing, dying, expanding, burning & leaving. I am remembering to appreciate the beauty of all that is, of existence itself and it’s creative nature, that even in death, the vibrant light of creation becomes purer.

Every emotion under the sun can come from loss, & every emotion we experience is valid. Now when I feel an emotion that is uncomfortable, I don’t look away, I lean into to it with love. I observe, think of Mario, and perpetually come back to my creative nature, my Dharma. Come back to the truth in the music.

The day before Mario passed, under that old oak tree, two friends cut from the same cloth, made a pact. Two singing bards, each with one hand in the earth and the other on an instrument said we’d be there for each other. With voices that weave the tales of existence, we are all notes on this one great song, and as Mario was there for me that day to hold space for my song, I wish to be there for all of you, to honor your songs and encourage you to sing.

So I’m moving forth with full love on an epic retreat in the north of Thailand this October.

In our morning song & waiting for Annie convo, Mario said he wanted to start holding retreats. I told him of my upcoming retreat and asked him to be a part of it, & to share his sound and skill for creative flow.

I know he will be there in spirit because his spirit lives on through us.

Look into coming to this epic retreat filled with ancient Yogic practices, medicine songs, and techniques to free your creativity.

We are made of the stuff of creation & it is your birthright to express your deepest truths through any medium that call to you.

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Early birds get the discount only $390 for everything including food, 5 nights accommodation, and so many liberating offerings. Check www.freeyourcreativity.org to learn more and sign up to be involved in a scholarship contest in Mario’s honor.

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I’m feeling more excited than ever about this retreat knowing how proud of me Mario was when I told him it was happening.

He said, “I just want to share with the world in my gifts”.

Isn’t that what we all desire? Reply with how this post made you feel, & if you’re dealing with loss at the moment, I am here for you.

Reply & let me know what gifts you wish to cultivate & thank you for honoring our friend Mario by sharing your gifts with the world.

Chakra, sound healing

We Are Made From Sound

We are made from sound. I repeat this like a mantra to integrate this statement into my moment to moment awareness. And as the sound emerges from my lips, I feel the truth vibrating against my upper palette, sending ripples of ancient knowledge up my spine.

We are made from sound. Go Ahead, Say it Out Loud.

In many creation stories, if you listen with your heart, you understand that the ancient onces knew this and passed the knowledge down in soliloquy, poetry, & story. They passed this knowledge down in forests, in caves, & in sacred mountains, through lineages & councils. The wisdom keepers literally sing the knowledge in mantric tones to let the truth be heard in the deep marrow of thier bones.

Have you ever stepped into a Buddhist temple & felt the vibration of chants rolling forth from the lips of the holy men? This is higher truth. Sound carries the consciousness of truth.

From sages, to song writers, many have harnessed the power of sound. This practice isn’t restricted to any one culture, belief, or heritage. We are have a voice, so we all can make sounds. And if we bring intention into these sounds, we can begin to manifest great things into our lives. There’s a secret that I want to reveal to you. Sound is Sacred! Can you believe it?

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In the beginning there was the Word… and the Word was God. This is the message from one of the most famous sacred books in the world. THE HOLY BIBLE.

In the ancient texts of the Yoga tradition, it is written that OM is the primordial sound which created the universe. The original big bang theory!

Even the word Universe can actually be broken down to mean one verse – one song! We are all unique expressions of that song. We are like notes on the symphony of life.

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Are you catching a theme here?

Science likes sound too, and has theorized that all of this reality which we see before us, our inner and outer world exists because of a big bang; a sound so powerful, that it created matter from seemingly no matter existed before.

Science does a great job of studying and putting to modern words what the ancient Yogi’s, mystics, and indigenous wisdom keepers have known as sacred truth.

But you don’t have to take my word for it, its the practice of chanting, toning & singing that has given me a sense of freedom & happiness that I have never really felt before.

Who needs coffee when you can simply sing your favorite song to get those happiness hormones pumping through your system?

I still love coffee, & plant medicines like Cacao to uplift my spirits, but the magic power of the voice is with you wherever, & whenever you are.

Sure, maybe singing show tunes during your lunch break in the office might not win you the best of friends, but a self practice needs no validation from your co-workers or anyone else for that matter. Its not about the performance, pitch, timbre or tone. It’s about understanding the greater existence & connection, and using your sound to show up in the world fully connected, vibrant, & living your truth.

I’m dedicating my life to helping people create a practice using the sound of their own sweet voice to activate and balance the deep layers of their human-ness. The whole of you exists in a rhythm. I work with ancient practices that tune the body, mind, & spirit to its natural rhythm, your natural song.

Would you like to uncover your truth &  feel confident enough to sing it out loud, to tell your story, & to let your voice be heard?

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Journey Through Sound

Journey through sound

Since I can remember, I’ve been a noise maker, always the talkative one in school, singing my afternoons away, & playing with sound naturally, as most children do. Much later, well into my 20’s, I began to capture sound into song & developed an artistic endeavor of song writing. I began to sing my songs in coffee shops, open mic nights, and little street corners in faraway lands, sharing my stories through melodic tones and stringed instruments.

My songs brought to light the hidden aspects of myself that could only be expressed through poetry. The intertwining of my stories and my inner melody made tangible by the friction of air through my vocal chords; the energetic caress bringing the etherial to form.

I noticed, after a while of singing my own songs, that when singing, I felt in total embrace with the moment. It took many years to get over stage fright, and release any thoughts and limiting beliefs which prevented me from sharing my creative expression openly. In those years, walking the Hawaiian Islands with an ukulele and a song in my heart, I did not have any one mentor, or teacher to help me break down those walls. I saw singers around me who inspired me, & I just sort of kept singing until the sound melted the barriers between me and the moment.

This is what singing does for me, brings me into presence. Singing now is a place where no thoughts reside. When in the succor of sound, I simply surrender to the melody. all thoughts become transmuted, and I experience a profound spell of being found in the sound of it all. I am completely, and totally there. My songs became my mantras, a tool for my mind to let go of the chatter and simply be with my expression.

When I realized this, I started singing mantras, ancient sanskrit chants to free the mind from negative afflictions. Mantras, when sung with a devotional spirit, can open your heart to a feeling of unconditional love. I started singing the various names of the divine, words that for me at the time, held no meaning, and yet opened my heart like a seed setting itself free from the soil.

My newest endeavor is to follow the sound back to the seed of creation, and take you all on that journey with me. I’ve been nomadic for 4 years, following the sound. Each land I explore has a song to sing, an energetic melody, and a deeper story rooted in music, in sound, and in creative expression. No matter where I am, or the history or turmoil of the land, if you listen deeply, you can hear the sound of children laughing, the banging of a drum, the effervescent call of the wild, the the sweet whispers of the wind. Many creation stories are rooted in the sound as the force which started it all. THE ALL YA’LL. The mystical realm of this reality and all its seen & unseen forces.

In the upcoming weeks, we will go on a journey through sound together, exploring sound in different contexts, and sharing songs & stories of my travels. If you would like to join me on this journey through sound, you can sign up to My Mailing List. When you do, you’ll also receive my sweet little booklet all about Cacao, a medicine, I use to help open my voice & my heart. Yes, I said it…

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Not in the area? We can work together via the inter webs!

Have you heard of this thing called the world wide web? Well, it offers us the opportunity to work together even though our physical bodies may be far from one another. We can create a presence, a practice, and intention together, ultimately helping you to feel more vibrant, connected, and free. Free from fear, from shame, and free to love more deeply than you’ve loved before, all with the healing power of your own voice.

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If you are in the California area, or planning to travel here, I will be giving a workshop in the healing village at Heart & Solstice Gathering, a 4 day music, art, & transformation festival in Angels Camp, California June 22nd-25th. If you would like to purchase tickets to this gathering at a 10% discount, contact me, and I’ll set that up for you.